Musings and the bullshits

Ok Ok so i've been terrible at the Bloggy blog, but that's at being connected in general, for one A LOT of work ( my days of watching porn and rubbing one out at the office, are pretty much done, uh?). Additionally is just a lot of  work/ car/ family stuff , Family cause besides the whole  Binks being here ( now we gym together,she joined my Douche factory, she too concurs that  my gym IS full of un-normal Anorexic girls with fake tits) and the little ones and the constant saving and the fact that now is like my family's enforce togetherness time ( you know summer, beach, gatherings, all the birthdays and anniversaries this all the way til Thanksgiving) .. which BTW Paulie and co. are coming  for their birthdays, Neen and him are  like days apart and they are bringing the Fresh Baby  * gimme gimme gimme she is so fat and cute*. The conditions at work have improved cause I told him OFF so now that he got told off again by me he REALLY been kissing my ass, full insurance, lunch buys daily,

Anyways so see? a Lot of shit, aside from that I'm not going to lie once my car improved ( which it has a lot, is strange, It still needs a LOT of shit but I'm half past giving hard fucks about it) my moods have lifted in general, also helping the Mood ( or Luggage lifting for those of you Dan Savage lovers) ..... The great Principal sponsored S & M experiment of 2011

Before I delve into that, I might have mentioned about my car stalling pre a blah date i didnt want to go to cause the guy was a terrible speller and shit, well anyways... i never emailed, or texted that dude back cause i wasn't feeling it, then how about the guy hits me up Sunday 2 weeks later NO BULLSHIT  Asking if i can go pick him up from the airport all misspelled and shit, I say Absolutely nothing back, this guy has since NOT STOPPED TEXTING?CALLING so then i have him blocked and he is BOMBING my goddamned blocked  folder with Inanity , anything from "wen we hangin out" to "My fone won't work later" to " Is Pourin" " I Miss you"  TROLLOP OFF OF ONE HORRIBLE DATE WHERE I ASKED YOU TO GO HOME SO I COULD FIX MY GODAMNED BATTERY AND YOU DECIDED TO FOLLOW ME TO WALMART??!?!?!

 So yeah that too much trouble on something I didn't fuck, and you know I'd tell you as much

So Yeah as per my Previous Vlog The Principal Managed to come back ( mostly i decided to unblock him on a whim after i was fondly recalling our abnormal sex and having a soft moment..... and a dry ass spell of unworthy talent more of this in a sec) anyways, he hit me up we met up he was super nice and gracious and we talked and stuff all great, we have lapsed into shameful practices that could never be construed as "Normal"  suffice to say it scratches a Very Specific, not for everyone dirty dirty itch twice a week of so, no more (This too will be relevant in a second) and that he is being so very " Nice" at being a good Master or Daddy if you will...Oh God I don't want to elaborate for either of our sakes  that he even recruited his friend once again to work me down below, no reciprocation no nothing just as excellent and as intense as the last time but Ok....

HERE IS MY FUCKING MISGIVING ABOUT ADDING THEM BACK: I fucking am dealing with someone whose weak point i ALREADY know and surely enough IMMEDIATELY after that like next day, he is on the MFF thing I ONCE AGAIN reiterated I don't want chicks but I'll bend rules a bit JUST so he can have his experience, well then would you believe this son of a bitch, pouts, then wants to change our agreed upon time, fine, fine I even tell him that there are cool days and NOT HAPPENING DAYS, so would you know that to test my resolve ( and his powah over me I guess?) TRIES ME ON THE SPECIFIC DAY I TELL HIM IM NOT AVAILABLE ( I wasn't available cause.....um, I was busy having the Best effing sex since April with a nice roughish Tatted up/ old scars/graphic-design-teacher-amazing-built-super-good-in-bed-generous-can-back-up-all-that-talking-bullshit-guys-do-which-I-hate-either-way-I- Haven't -Been- THIS- THIRSTY- FOR-A-REPEAT-Since................................. a-LONG-TIME... OMG the Kissing.. is ... just... Oh My Fucking A! more of this another time, but seriously when you get the leg lick from your toes to your ever so special place? UMMMMMMM) So anyways this asshole starts acting like Eric Fucking Cartman throwing a hissy fucking on me  about he wants to see me and I'm being summoned and so forth then he goes radio silent a day, then the next day he wants to start at it while I'm at work, all cause he is free, etc , so i BLOW THE FUCK UP ON HIM: I mean a long ass text telling him he needs to chill the fuck out and stop throwing hissies on me that I'm super accommodating cause I like our age, power and dynamics but he can either move on or get it the fuck together, he didn't answer for a while but he did half assed apologized and said we'd talk about it more. I gave that shit as a done deal, Moreso cause I went to see him eventually and he was EXCELLENTLY rough and so was I and no convo was needed we just did our thing.. well then I took a shower Come out to... a Talking to... he said that he wouldn't bring up the MFF thing I told him  that he was to welcomed to do what he wanted and I could give him the leeway to do that ( cause you know me, i'm only jealous when I care) that he should search for his goddamned bliss cause basically I like what i like and don't like what I don't like, to keep the peace i said, i rather the friend thing doesn't happen again cause although *I* get all the joys ever made in humanity, This is not something that will be lorded over me and I like our thing just fine the way it is, anywhoodie what came next was such a fucking bomb that I literally got twitchy eyes that wouldn't stop until i went to bed  I was THAT flabbergasted, like I HAD to confer with the reinforcement troops; The thing went like this:"I'm happy I can explore this thing with you , what we do cause I'm pretty mild normally and mild mannered easy going, but is something I always wanted but never did get to have it sexually with anyone before"

Me: Yeah is good for me too cause i HAVE to be on my toes so much of the time fending for myself in every respect, i'm not a vulnerable violet or anything but i need a pressure valve and for someone else to be in control of everything so .. it works.. plus, you ARE hot" 

I want you to tell me whenever you want to stop, or if, you know, if you end up wanting to sleep with someone else

Um.. if someone gets close to me or i do something exclusive, then yeah sure

No, I Mean even Casual

WHAT
IN
ALL
THE
FUCKS?!?!??!?!?!

How in the fuck from just a weekly thing a thing that is by any account NOT datey, not cuddly, not sleepovery, not anything except very rude dirty sex, how have you figured out that this is tantamount to exclusive rights??/ how?? who said that when did we do that? what??? Tell you what tho, THAT ISN'T HAPPENING, if anything this reinforces why I don't like to bring ex members, they always have some ridiculousness trying to pull rank, you don't get to tell me when and who to fuck when you do me once or twice a week and you don't have everything I'd like to have in a package, BOO SIR ( needless to say I ran out of there wet, twitchy and shit)

 This brings us to the following, That Tatted up Guy which totally came as a Dark Horse since I wasn't having much faith in him or whatever ( it takes me a face to face meeting etc to determine that you know, I'm down) but we had been talking etc so cool, we met up for drinks and rather got along really good, jokes, chilled out eventually I brought him over to show him  the apt. Instead ended up really ... well lest just say it was a knock out drag out situation, like WHOA SIR! and I didn't even have to get him to the point of dominant behavior or anything, it was really one of those things where your own body just  plays you the fuck out.. the Goal Getting this on the team STEADY Dark Horse this one, but so good, a little swag but not in a wiggerrific way and i guess a bit of a troublemaker for  he did say that the scars were from the past and that "I was safe" with him .. I think that's when he sold me  on the deal ( or maybe when he said he didn't follow sports or um, the packaging , or when i realized he was covered in ink everywhere he had clothes on?) Yeah  we are so meeting up again

And Because surely when it rains it pours and because OF COURSE the Principal is on that nonsense about exclusivity that i didn't ask for nor vetoed, A NICE hunk of Marine also covered in Ink just said he'd be psyched to take me out to dinner, yes he looks like a big doucheburger and therefore I said Yes, as i told La, i owe it to the Armed Forces to service their members in an ROTFLMMAO lemme stop we just agreed to go on a drink, he is here temporarily and so  Meow Of course  I will!

Lemme take my ass to bed, I have training with Binks ( she brokered this deal with her trainer where we have sessions for 25 bucks a pop, superfair so is on, twice a week)