Trouble? Last Round? Possibility??

Dearly beloved, I Came from a STUPID "interview" that turned out to be an hour an a half long test with a computer that froze 3 times and a cattle call setting:  Thing the biggest dry erase board you can think off with At least 50 names and and and! some of them had comments ranking from the snarky to the undecipherable and then when I got there like 4 girls before me

I. Know


UGH!

Anywhoodle, before interview I went to the dr. cause I've had fucking breakthrough bleeding for almost an effing month sometimes heavy, sometimes not, THANKS GOD FOR INSTEADS!!( i couldn't be me without the option, to... you know have sex ) the best is that this Nurse there is Colombian and HEARTS the shit out of me so she was like  "come thru the back, I'm giving you a higher dosage different pills, If it works call me and I'll call the pharmacy for you " .. how about these shits are chewable minty flavored like fucking Tic Tacs... look If i'm using tic tacs cut in half as BC I'm going to fucking be SHITPISSED!... Lucky me that I'm totally into money shots!....Maybe that was too much and I shouldn't be so damned crass

Alrighty then MUCH to discuss, or not really much, just a very major development... or a merry go round as it were

OM

Yeah... That dude ... *sigh* this is not even tired this is beyond tired but also I'm getting some new twists in ,  So then ... you know he texted me for the 24th ( interesting how he remembered that I celebrate that Not GringosXmas, more so cause again this dude is dead set  against that, more than me) so  Like Sunday

He starts with his typical Low stakes Ha-Ha Crappy Bullshit:

OM: Not Nice you  completely Blocked me apparently from seeing your profile :) 

Me: Why would you care about that, I'm sure you've moved on to something better than me

OM: Well, doesn't get better than you

Me: Right, that's why in a couple of months I get the cold shoulder, you already found some younger skinnier better in bed than me piece of ass and she is enjoying you talents, so how about you don't need to see my profile to jack one off to when you had the real thing at your disposal before and you  fucked it up

OM: You got mad when I was in Boston, I let you time to cool off, I guess that's not going to happen ( This is typical so I was composing my rage response then I saw THIS non typical, let guard down shit)  I miss you and think about you all the time, sorry my actions didn't show it better

Me: You just don't get it OM.. this is about how you act when things are fine and chilled between us, is like time to avoid calls act as though I'm bothering you if I text you on some short shit, plain not wanting to hang out when you aren't ultra busy working only for me to see you online ll the fucking time.. that shit is not just mean, is also hurtful

OM: I understand, it never was what you think, i should have turned my profile off I was not looking for anyone and I never was seeing anyone since i started seeing you ( This is the first time this fucko has acknowledge this shit is and has been a problem)

Me: And it  takes this sort of shit for you to be straight with me, I've been cool to you, no pressure, I've asked you this to your face, and you have acted as though I don't deserve a real explanation, real communication from you or like we don't have a real connection... I'm not asking you for marriage, a complication or nothing more than steadiness and niceness, I'm the kind of chick you talk to, you get to be honest with me. I don't want you to weasel your way into my life and heart again just to act funny with me in a couple of months. I like you so you either give this shit a real fucking shot, if you are going to, if you want to next year or just leave me the fuck alone, go on messing with the next young piece of ass, Don't even answer Now, think about it whatever, just be honest Give me that Much

OM: I miss you very much, in my life .. as a person and as a lover

Me: I miss you too but we are going to be here in two more months or whenever you get in your mood, Like I said we've been at this for a year... Either WE are shutting sex  profiles down, fuck and hang with each other, see how it goes or just PLEASE, just leave me alone

OM: I'll cancel it right now, no hesitation


!!!! this was new?! few minutes later

OM: you can check on it, here is the password, is turned off now, next system update it'll be gone

Me: I'm in bed, I'll do that tomorrow but i sincerely hope you can step up and be honest  and open with me shit between us never had to be hard or a seesaw... you need to talk to me more

Om; I agree, i can do better

So then He asked me Monday if I wanted to go to dinner, i said No cause i already had the Principal coming over BUT accepted for tusday.. dinner, just to talk  ... that Monday  things with the Principal went Crazy... This guy acted like a Cuntrag!!!//!??!?! why you ask?>? cause he got lost coming the wrong way, Now If you know ANYTHING about me I DO NOT have a good sense of directions So i WON"T BE THE ONE getting you out of that and I warn guys about this.... well i tell him to stop where he was at 15 mins from me But this guy was RANTING and RAVING like a lunatic  Like real life yelling, threatening me to go back to miami i said...uh.... Go!

Then he found his way but started whining that he had golf in the am, that he wanted to come early for that , that I was Not as good as him at this FFM thing cause why wont i use my gfs? why can't i find him a chick?? ( WTF?? am I a lesbian or bi?? Um NO)  why couldn't she touch me i was Like: LOOK asshole you can come over now and we have fun, you can FIND whomever YOU would like to fuck and invite me over so I can have fun with you But I have ZERO reason and or motivation to be doing your legwork  for fuck's sake I do NOT like women!

But then after that when he got here he was super good in bed, dom, and unfailingly polite after I was so sorta pissy I dropped the bomb that I might just go relocate to jacksonville and shit, he then was super like whinny and hugging me and such. The next day, strangely ( or cause he knows he acted like a dumb cock ..I mean you guys like screamy extra difficult shit)  asked me how was he last night did I like my master still and then yesterday even he said Brian wanted to play with me again, again JUST to service me... I'm so funky and I'm such a bitch I acted like uhhmmmmmmnnnhhhhhhgggg  who knows ....



Now then Tuesday:  I get there and he is so...unromantic and not super affectionate ( he is OM after all, and i'm me LOL) we act like we saw each other yesterday and things ended a wee wee bit awkward. So the door is open he tells me to come in, I go in and I go crazy for the dogs.. I turn around and there is this Fucking Zales bag

!!!!!!

And when i open it a necklace on white gold with a pendant , swirly black and white tiny diamonds and Matching earrings........





Is not just that is like ridiculously expensive, a crazy thing to do Or that Is The ONLY sort of things i'd wear, you know anything Big I consider tacky on me, you know I don't like costumey stuff or things you have to take off/on cause I'm going to lose it , you know i don't even wear golden things cause i don't Love them on me


I was Like .. floored.... stunned shocked... I was like Jesus.. man.. Thanks!.... I have nothing for you! OMG! (you know I'm as bad for this as he is) so we just hugged I gave him a quick peck with shaky hands and sort of sat there like oh Christ!Oh Christ!oh Christ then him, being him tells me: "Look here is all the paperwork, you can return for something better if you want, you go get it cleaned twice a year and if the stones go missing they will replace them" ..... all the while I'm still shaking and screaming in my head)but he was already asking me to help him take the puppies out and stuff and just talking ON AND ON about work He was a Chatterfucking box all the sudden (apparently, since October back when I told him to go away when he was in Boston, he's been in Florida about a total of 3-4 weeks all together, yeah he showed me the pics and travel log crap, his pictures of the different places and facilities he worked in, Boston, Oakland and San Fran) then we then went to dinner

And then talked some more like, about why I got mad, how he acts and how that shit comes across to me, cause in his mind it was just : Oh i'm working a lot, and Hey why doesn't she text me? ( cause of his short response shit) So on the advice of his cocksucking BFF Upon his inquiry of how are things between you and Q and OM's response that.. "well, She only answers to my texts.. but only if I text her?".. his friend then told him to go ahead and NOT communicate to see what would happen?!?!?! so His stupid ass decided to heed that shit and go without texting me to see how long it'd be before I texted him which is when he sent me that stupid Oh so you don't text me if I don't text you first?" when he was In Boston ... But I think now I can call him on that dumb shit of " oh if your friends Tell you to jump off a cliff would you do it?".... jerk off! I asked him to put himself in my position, like if I did that to him, all those things he does taking all those circumstances from MY end... How would he react....putting all those occurrences together?.

He didn't disagree and apologized for any hurt he could have caused me and for the fact that he does tend to be moody . I told i don't want him eternally apologizing and that his basic, rough dude no feelingtalky i understand and agree with, That shit would embarrass my own ass. He says i overthink him too much that he is happy, not looking for any ass and just a working dog and yes a pervert but that he should have for all intents and purposes deleted the profile or at least make it invisible cause that wasn't his intention to make it look like he was looking for ass to be had..... I told hm he could have SAID that from go and to continue being a pervert ( Only surprise surprise, he didn't Turn it off like I did.. I saw that when I checked..he deleted the whole thing) if he needs to but to fuck!ng let me know as I MIGHT like to watch him since, I'm a pervert myself, I asked him for better communication, he asked for more open ended texts if I'm to elicit a bigger response from him ( if his short answer texts at work bug me so much) and he says that the call thing is genuinely not in ill intent that he actually wants to know why wont I stay on the phone more than 20 minutes with him so.. I guess I can try to do that ( this is not the first guy to say I do that BTW , I don't mind with my girls or people that know me well But guys that Make me nervous or anyone that might point out my accent....that bothers me deeply and to the core) But he said he really likes me has no problem with me at all and that was rather hurty I didn't come in my shinny bike seeking him, assured me that either way I should know he would always want to help me be there for me ( That I don't do, you know if I say buh bye to a dude I don't have children with Is a wrap, I can get 18 new cock having friends next year, I do not need dudes I've been naked with and whose dicks I've suck acting like they are my bffs)

So that's the story.. then we sat home.. he watched sports and hugged me, I brushed the dogs..I got sleepy he asked me if I wanted to nap on his bed, i declined, I wanted to suck the chrome out of his.. ... but didn't and that whole

Us not wishing him well thing???

And I feel bad cause I'm a bad riddance wisher and boy did HE get it! The 25 y.o was
INSANE spoke broken English, is text stalking him and the texts are like...amazing like 20/ 30 texts a day INSANE texts and Insults, Like "YOUR Hair stinks, you have big ear, i never liked u" , one minute, "you are my proud cowboy from Indiana" the next and if you do not think and Calling this motherfucker that and ROASTING HIM about it... you don't know shit in life.. i mean he is showing me the texts and the crazy heauxs is texting to non responses while we are dining and shit ...A-Ma-Zing.. i mean ya'll she said LOVE after the SECOND time they hung out LOVE!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday we spent like the whole day together and took the dogs to the park, watched movies, he bought me a car adapter for my Zune and had late lunch at Cheddar's and bunch of trashy food at night talked and while we were at the park got told by his boss he needs to go to Newark for 2 weeks like, mid January.. he is bummed about it but he loves to be the depended on guy at work so *shrugs*

What will happen? where is this going? No Se Ya'll I just feel Like ... I don't think in years I've wanted/ liked anyone as much, i can't understand this shit, I don't get why I ask for him to be gone and out of my life and ice him and then spend AMPLE amount of times regretting it, feeling sad and then he comes back.... At least the shit is on the table, is all in the open, he knows what I expect and I know for the most part what he can do ...So if YOU Don't Know I'm the I don't know Boat Captain.. so take a damned Seat Ms.Passenger.. also full related aside, like, NO ONE ever in or out of my family ever has given me a xmas present like this ( xmas or otherwise) ... and thing is... It'd be easy to discount some gift crap like that in SoFl land of the vain an flashy except he isn't rich at ALL we go eat Taco Bell more often than not for dinner cause we like that mess a LOT anywhoo Both Binks and Gem said almost Unison, I found that funny: "Jesus Q This Guy REALLY speaks one language and is Gift Giving"

We don't know what's in the cards, at least i don't, I want to have some faith...maybe is stupid of me? I don't know...I would like it to work.....Mami was saying some shit about always wanting me to find someone and me being too hurt by Joel Vanilla Sex Mesa and David the beater ex husband but that i don;t deserve that and that maybe if i fully forgive them assholes I can allow myself permission to trust guys and learn to be patient... since this is Mami and all I hustled her off the phone and wet on my merry way... but maybe there us something to it who knows