SMDH: Hate my week and my family... UGH!

First off: My car's tune up started being shitty right on Monday so my car is stalling.. since ther eis some sort of warranty I'm going back out tomorrow... I HOPE they don't come up with any bullshit fees to pay cause essentially I'm Flat Broke, you don't want to know how flat is that... I could, I know connive or shed a few tears for some money from a certain so and so But i'd sooner go hungry cause that is Not my style, shit is not my style to discuss money with my mother so really THIS is it as far as this convo goes..... I'm going to get the car done after a pap smear that I'm paying 100 bucks for (cause I need new pills than actually work properly not make me bleed halfway through my cycle and then NOT have ANY type of period the 4 days I'm supposed to get it) I sort of hate that This is what's in store for my rest days when I already feel sick, also....

My NEWLY PAINTED PRETTY CEILING got a wet stain on in: Why?? cause we had a tropical storm the past few days and it's just been non stop rain... and the ceiling they keep repairing every other year as per the association KEEPS getting  damaged by rain.. I hate life I really do hate being surrounded by so much failing substandard shit I'm even starting to resemble people calling me with their problems and their inability to get with a solution if the problem is so damned bad (Hi Pearl, Hi Binks!) especially cause when I have issues the standard response is: "Oh I don't know what to tell you"  or  My new favorite from my boss " Can't you move somewhere else?/ Buy a new car? (How with the bags of money you pay me?) ... speaking of Boss this guy has the bad taste of whining about work being slow and no vacays when I'm living like I am, I told him to go fuck himself and same thing to the little pseudo partner I think I keep NOT talking to him and any time he comes gets lippy at me I repeat my mantra to him to his face:
 
You can save that shit up for when you pay me... but since you Don't  please carry on about your day instead of worrying about my shit

So today, I'm snotting around and dealing with WORK SHIT DURING WORK HOURS when Mommy Dearest calls me (Mind you I'm sounding and feeling gross and sicky so I'm not in any type of deal with Mommy Dearest Mood)

"Mary  is going to call you I gave her your number she gotta ask you something  "  (she says this forcefully rude and like I better answer then as an afterthought: How is everything... I tell her I'm hanging up cause I'm.. at work, you know?)

Mary Is My sister's Mother in law: Great Is either religious or Bullshit, neither good I'm at fucking work how is this hard to fathom for these family members of mine ?!?!

**btw I get daily calls from them sometimes cause of their foreclosures that they have asked me to do for them (which is pretty exhausting, and time consuming and it means also working with that asshole who does not pay me and really any inch you give him he immediately reverts right back to "you are my secretary too" which I'm NOT) and to write letters for them and make calls **


I hang up the phone and I already have a message from this lady (can i talk about how MUCH i hate calls from strange numbers?, call her back : oh Hi so Josh/David/Daniel/ Whatever name he is going by Lately  (let's call him DumbHusband?)  wants to surprise Binks and he wants to come and he wants you to take her to a nice restaurant that's open late or something after her memorial service today and that then  DumbHusband would meet you there as a surprise


UGH! I hate these assholes I really do

I hustle her off the phone, I tell here there is a 24 hours diner by my house that that this is the best I can do

 Not two minutes pass by this mothereffing dude calls me to essentially slow talk on the phone (you know he is slow-like both cause his meds and for fucking reals ) and the big Whiner tells me:   

Well cause I look different I styled my hair different and got a tattoo and stuff so I want to see how long would it be before she recognizes me Can't you take her to a club.. oh you sound sick (this Vain F*ck got a makeover and he wants a reveal is all  this is in NO WAY FORM OR SHAPE about surprising my sister as much as it is about this asshole who always wants to be in control and who loves to throw People off center pulling one of his famous stunts)


 I am ABOUT to Blow up and say : Josh YOU know the person YOU married what chances in hell you think there are that MY SISTER, The Religious Person she is Is going to go to ANY club at 9 pm on a Friday that her mother in law is minding her kids AFTER a Memorial service... come the fuck on

So he giggles (slow) and says (slow as fuck): Oh oh yeah ok maybe not I just want her to see me in a place she wouldn't expect to see me


 Josh I gotta Go, I'm at work Talk to you when you are around this is the best I can do and I'm at work

I really really really hate these people and their fucking extra as well as my family's needy streak and quite frankly I need a long time of No one.. a phone with not reception in a tropical Island that never gets cold .... This actually includes OM too I'm on a plan to wean myself off of him cause in the long run this might not be anything I want it to be no matter how nice he is acting ( which for the record he is , he checks on me daily whether we see each other or not but he is also on the site chatting or doing whatever the fuck gets his nuts off frankly don't care to get emotional about it nor do I care to have a big to-do about it as I am 98% sure he isn't meeting anyone as much shit as he wants to wank off to) .

Monday he drove to Tampa and actually kept chatting with me all the way there and provided me with his itinerary, pictures of his hotel room and kept asking me about the show we watch since he was on the road (Hoarders)  I'm not mean I just stopped contacting him of my own initiative, but if he says hi or whatever I answer on a timely fashion Tuesday he kept me informed of his drive back and asked me to dinner with him that we would cook together I agree I meet him there and then find out halfway through our shopping that he has not had anything to eat since sometime the day before... how I find out? cause this dude almost passed out on me in Publix... so much so I got to drive his truck for the first time (really first time I drive a big car like that) he was cold and clammy..

 ...Anyways we made dinner, I made him eat sugar and most of my lemonade and he was fine after that and we feasted on food and sex afterward but whatevs that doesn't change the fact I think I need to try and talk to him about the things about him that bother me considering is really been a year of this whole us being around each other and I'm quite ok and prepared with this to go bad, I just want to be clear on what I want and as soon as I do that ( this is not in terms of a relationship or not more about behaviors, he doesn't seem to be any better with those talks than I am but specific things I tell him I want changed he modifies).

The next day I got mad at him cause he sent an obscure text that Implied he wanted me to come over (I was fairly close, at my aunt's) so I repeatedly ask: Is this from yesterday/ you mean now? to no answer.. since this is not that uncommon and I wanted to make sure I call him, leave a message and then head over after about 20 mins (as seemingly implied by text) this asshole took more than his sweet time answering the door which Only pissed me off cause I knew he was there in his office and stuff he then opened super chill with the phone on speaker but muted telling me he was in a phone meeting:  And you couldn't answer the fucking door to say that?!

I show him the message I received saying : Head over, 20 Mi and explain to him I called him to see what was the deal as well as sent him messages trying to figure if this was a mistake or what... he said that he didn't really know where he left his phone but that he was simply letting me know he was getting home but that now that I was there although he wasn't expecting me, i could stay

FUCK. THAT "offer"

WTF ?!?! why? did I ask YOU!??! Was I asking you? at this point in time the pressure of my shit and the weather and the sinus pain I have and my family was just wearing me thin so I simply turned on my heels and said: whatever the fuck weirdo, I'm Out let's not Intrude upon your time ... he kept saying to stay since I was there but I declined and with that I went to chill at my sister's since she was whining about our sister in law AKA the Facebook Wife AKA Neen and how is apparently known that is our obligation to throw her a baby shower

How About Fuck me?


But yeah after that the past couple of days he's been checking on my day and asking me about my roof and can he do anything about it, like he felt the chill (honest it seems he panics as much as I do when I just up and don't talk to him ) and I sincerely  appreciate it  and all but on the other hand have enough on my plate to not care.. I mean the sex is genius and I want it and could use it and in fact everything is fine when we are together, so much so that I don't think there is anything wrong as far as he can see BUT I  know me, I'm going to make waves soon and I almost don't care how he takes it his stance of getting huffy when the conversation turns to what do you want out of this /us Is about to be completely invalid in a very short while and where i'm standing now (in my office on a friday at 2:15pm) I sorta don't give a shit Right This NOW, sure that can change and I can still want him (which I VERY INTENSELY MUCH, DO) but as I said I'm slowly going to fill up my life and time and stuff so I am not absolutely wracked with lust and desire to see him.. matter fact my fat ass has a gym membership that needs to hang out with me, how about that ?! Maybe I can take aggression out  there  (I'm feeling a LOT of that)


 Anyways  Three Good things have happened:


Gem did This color analysis full of Ignorance for me (ask her, she might do one for you too!)


A Lady at work came chasing me down the hall to ask me about my very long great for my ass Jeans, she said the fit was great (they are Old Navy and were like 5 bucks on the thrift Store.. whaaa?)


La Found a message on her VM in which I called her Liddle Baby, and asked her about Condoms and Lube... totally normal (she saves My vms cause I'm awesome and I sound like a drunk spick retard with my accent and whatnot)


Ben Harper- Suzie Blue: I um.. love him , there is no other reason


Pizzicatto Five- Porno 3003 (Thievery Corporation  Remix): Yes I would want to have a song titled as such

 
Summer Nights - Lonnie Liston Smith: Oldie (1975) but goodie , so let's shall we?