so this happened

So OM out of nowhere after talking about his day,  Wednesday says: You made the comment I'm an asshole 90% of the time makes me think you're like the girl on the radio

:( :( :(  which only makes me want to puke , Lets recap: when we went to dinner the previous  night he was being extra about wanting his own salad (I offered him to get mine) then he was ragging on the fact that i was standing in the inappropriate place to open the door, and I told him that he is so nice and yet difficult about his shit that makes me think he is 90% asshole we laughed it off But I also told him about some jokes for example that he uses to temper the NICE stuff he does  (about me being a lady or lack thereof etc)

Bueno Later on our way to the movies we are listening to this show on the radio and these dudes are berating a girl that called for advice calling her a dumb ass and stupid for staying with this guy that spies on her etc etc etc and we sort of totally agreed with them and laughed it off to the movies and such but THAT is  Girl on the radio

I Quickly responded: Lol No you aren't, 100% deliciously evil ( we joke about him always checking the time and finding it to be either  3:33 am/pm) but asshole is  a 10% thing, the rest is very nice and rather sweet, I think i use asshole in place of gruff and direct, and direct is not a bad thing

He then says right as I fire that :  I honestly feel you don't like me as a person

I quickly now say: I am nothing like girl on the radio, I'm happy with you, and whaaat??? I like you as a person, a lot Even! I think we just have different ways of communicating, is like me doubting you like me as a woman but then WE don't communicate those things to each other, hence we get confusion... but no you are wrong I like and admire a lot of things about you :-) i find you to be a ballsy guy also really smart and sweet in your own way. If i didn't like you i wouldn't want to be around you so much in and out of the bedroom.. plus we laugh a lot


No Answer

GREEEEAAAAAATTTTTTTT so this of course mean I had that tasty sick stomach feeling cause really who starts that line of questioning and then *poof* vanishes on the convo: To my great credit I not only say nothing else but have also great friends that are wiser than me and let me freak out while offering perspective, Gem and La and Monie and Pearl pretty Much Unanimously said: He is Having a period... is his own shit HE gotta work out You don't have to do anything BUT if you WANT to do something maybe Thursday go to his house and chat it out face to face  (cause space with us tends to turn into a month not talking and so on). But nonetheless I was concerned cause really?!!? Really!?/ he is going to believe that shit!? is the that thin skinned?? is he really sabotaging this shit like that??? why does he do that?? why can he just trust this will be cool

Whatever...I went to my Aunt's to get drunk and eat homemade pizza to take my mind off of him related things then I just went home and passed out with spicky

and OM?!? NOTHING ALL DAY... until.... at 4:00 pm NORMAL as you please he goes: Yo yo Yo Princess what's up!?!?


Who even says that (I asked that too?)... sometimes he makes me want to punch his ass so bad, anyways i answer very tepidly but certainly NOT trying to start none, he on  the other hand seemed to be in a good mood making jokes underlined by this:

You want to do dinner with me tonight? we have have Fajitas!?

The fuck?

Um... sure

Chicken or beef or both??I'm stopping by publix to get everything

uh... I don't really eat beef so chicken for me is cool

Ok cool see you later

This bipolar fuck... I'm going to obviously have to say something to this dude sometime regards this bullshit mood swings he does for no reason... it drives me batshit but on the other hand This is who I'm dealing with someone more scared-bitch of this than myself  a moody fuck at that so I TOO need to have a way of handling his little tantrums *sigh*

Anywhoo I get there and not only is Old dude wearing this shit !?!??!

  
Yeah!  eww picture makes no justice in both counts: the Horridness of the shirt, his looks

But then while I'm chopping shit out  (he was really.. i don't know extra Touchy feely, we cooked side by side we work well as a team, i don't know if he even pays attention to this) he goes gets a shirt and literally buttons it up on me while I'm cooking

EEEEWWWWWWW this shit was according to him: A Fajita Fiesta (why did we have Hawaiian shirts, and why did he ululate like a Muslim thing?? No answer to that ...ever) then we went to get plastic containers before his show came on, so I could take leftovers to work etc.... well it was nice, more than nice actually really really really sweet and lovely and in a strange fashion the whole time we ate he sat on the floor, I sat on the couch, but he kept rubbing my back and legs and then eventually was making out something fierce (rare with this one.. he is not a bad kisser.. just not a kisser like THAAAAT) he was mumbling something about being dickish and kissing me and I agreed he was indeed a dick, eventually we retired to bed where i figured we'd sleep but instead fucked each other's Brains out til I cried out in semi pain (but then if someone was biting you everywhere you would too)

After that mess I sincerely plopped there trying to catch my breath (as did he) and here I was, I had to tell this dude I routinely fuck for an hour and such semi daily that i LIKE him sooooo

Look OM for the record I Like you, LIKE YOU!,ok?? as a person, as a man, you dick, in bed, out the bedroom, your hairy self, in an out your hair when is longish, down to your creepy monkey toes.. stop trying to sabotage this whatever it is Please stop!, I like you even the dickish grumpy parts so long as you don't flake out on me for no reason, cause we could have a crazy night like this any time you like... the rest is bullshit

of course he says nothing, as always... except kiss me lots and lots rub me and hold me and such... his thing is mostly after I say something like that , a behavior modification.... we shall see how this goes