doggie Date Fail, and more busyness... you guys were smart!

I mean.... I KNOW I was supposed to blog more but I've been a bit stressed out....it was time to get my prints done for the citizenship, luckily , they let me do them without presenting my residency, i just gotta hope it works the same way on my interview cause there is no other reason why they would deny me that, also the office rearrangement from hell? GOD I've hated this, the new dude and his assistant are not so horrible but these cramped ass quarters are the pits, needless to say my privacy has been zapped a bit and my boss stays playing fucking games and drawing pictures, that lady also talks too much and I gotta wear my headphones just to get peace and quiet

Anyways, my intended plan of more regular blogging will continue, since my desk is clean, those peeps are settled, and all and all our schedule seems to be totally managed now that and the fact that I NEED to go to the damned gym in a steady schedule, my body is good to me to not utterly rebel against my fuckery

ok so let's start where I last left you and inject a few asides here and there, Halloween night was spent with my aunts and my cousin Eva, we all sat in the front porch, Eva handed candy to her classmates cause she wasn't all for no damned dress up (another thing she mimics me in, I hate all that made up commercialized holiday shit, she never quite has gotten on board either, she says that now that she is a "teen" she can express her displeasure with same LOL) and I got to watch a few horror movies, mostly Zombies, George Romero and unworthy remakes, also Hulk Smash texted me something about being sick, I was like uh..Ok (mind you me and Tai have been speaking poo on to that cause we keep going back to the same thing: why did he non-answered me regarding why is he single... like he just giggled and deflected the question, a question that is NOT hard to answer BTW), Oralmaster put on some text time even though I really wasn't planning on seeing him since UH! was Saturday and I was chilling with my family and Sunday I'm supposed to hang out with NY

AHHHH NY... Let me tell you, Tai and my Manita have been hearing me gripe about this: I was feeling absolutely stifled I guess is like this... when you like someone a lot it doesn't matter but you know that to me he was ok in the attractive scale but not super extra hawt or nothing, (short), most of all I'm a firm believe that I don't owe you shit nor do you when we are just starting to date.... I'm a commitmentphobe THERE! I've said it! I am a great girlfriend to have cause I ask for little more that cock, faithfulness and some efforts, I give space cause I NEED space myself, so I'm not bugging you, texting you, needing wanting all the time... But you gotta EASE me to that point.... Calling nightly for an hour, texting several times a day is only going to make me REALLY nervous

And I was REALLY NERVOUS, ugh! bothered and twitchy, I was straight not answering to some texts and shit, to my credit I did not say shit cause like my Manita said: Maybe I need to be eased into things and, hey i think dude is nice, doing the things, he, so to speak, could do in order to attract me, right??

Idon'treallyknowwwww

That night spicky broke his running after a big azz Shiba Inu, who then went on to chomp on his side, he wailed but as soon as I picked him up he went right back to talking shit and yapping it up, is stupid too cause he had been awesome enough for my aunt and cousin to comment on how well he's behaved, with all the trick o treaters, being sweet with all the kids and the teenagers, just being quiet and smelling up everyone a little bit...the funniest shit was that Eva tied strong white rope around his neck, triple knot, is so amusing that I haven't taken it off

and oh my nails are growing, hard to tell there cause I keep em squared and tapered off but All of them have grown all of the sudden Fact: my nails really don't grow, they peel when they do, so I'm kind of surprised

I also finally washed my hair off the keratin; my hair is now wavy, and I gotta work for those, but is great cause I hate crazy volume and whatever i guess you see the length more, i'm not really attached to that, I'm more into the convenience of time reduction and not wetting it daily, so Booyakasha on That!

but to blow dry or flat iron it is a MINUTES thing I didn't even need a mirror yesterday I just flat ironed it while talking to mami, is extremely soft either way

So that date came in and based on my level of apprehension I'm already iffy, but i figure if he comes at 1pm then he'll leave early, and hey I could use a bit of massage and uh... sexification if it happens!!!? (what? you thought I grew morals all of the sudden??, uh NO)

The apprehension turns to "um, ok" when he insists that WE can go get our dogs dogtags and spike a new collar.... um........o....k.......

He then proceeded to make it worse by telling me how he really wasn't feeling his Halloween Horror Nights, trip to Orlando with his dudes cause it was super crowded but since i like that type of shit : Maybe we can go next year?!?/!?!/!/1/1/1/??!?!?!?1/kpowoqjw'ehcFSDUhfC"ASdihv

WtF??? I'm NOT sure I want to even keep you and you tombout NEXT fucking Year??? boy STTTTTTTTTTTTTOOOOOOOOOOOPPPPPPPPPPPPPP

Then he came and i just had this forebording like ENNGHH!! i gotta stop seeing this dude!... but his dog was ADORABLE and he also hated spike and spike hated him, it was a disaster, an hour and change trying to get those two idiots under control, spike even bit y finger, not intentionally but he did

And then NY started trying to kiss me and rub me... but it was just eh! I wasn't feeling it at all, it was sloppy, desperate, whatever..... Then he crowned himself the biggest looser when we are just laying there and he starts to kinda get close to me with a hard-on only to Ask again about when are we gonna have unprotected sex

I Told him that it was NOT gonna happen no matter what he said, so that was lame and fucking obnoxious as fuck, and I HATE that bullshit pressure, and is fucking stupid, no matter what is like 2009 I don't know where you've been and I'm looking out for number one, you'd think guys would give more of a fuck

add to that (when I'm already peeved out enough to put my clothes back on etc) Binky calls me and the whole fucking time I'm talking to her Not only is he not giving me space in my own couch BUT he is Trying to be loud to where he wants to be obviously noted... to where I GOTTA shush him, when I hang up on her he goes; Oh you can tell her about me

"uh, I decide when I tell who about what friend" (now he is pushing my fucking buttons)

and then he just didn't seem to want to leave 9im watching SVU and pointedly yawning and whatever

second to final button gets popped when Binks sends me pics of the kids and tells me to open them... and he is hovering over me cause HE wants to see em... he THEN jumps again on the same bullshit about Oh if we had kids... and "what color are their eyes"

NO
NO
NO
NO
NOOOOOO
NOOOOOOOOO

so somehow I hustle him out of here, ,he made a weak push about sex which I totally rebuffed and now i'm thinking "not-so-nice" cause nice guys don't fucking act stupidly pushy, and i IMMEDIATELY call my manita to let her know this simply won't do and it sucked ass and I couldn't wait for him to leave and then he knocks on the door cause he forgot something, so who knows maybe he woulda been privy to some convo and catch a clue but you know what does him in as final nail in the coffin??

He actually texted me, on his way home... to ask why didn't I want to have sex before he left; if it was because I was tired, or just didn't feel like it period


You know it had to end there right??: so i told him that pushing for condom less sex sucked on his part and I was feeling not well matched whether he was a sweet dude or not

he said he understood and blah blah balh I actually severely thank Mia for forcing me to write a very short dry message cause it woulda been death on earth to get a message or call from him on Monday so that was awesome

I have several pieces I'm moving at the moment, a ma asked me to pee on him, another said he is bisexual but i look like I'd be good to peg him (how did he know???) and 2-3 more, i gotta figure out who I want and who I don't, yummy fellas, but as of right now only Oralmaster is keeping up (texting me all lustyy from effing chicago begging me for some pictures etc etc etc ) I'm still deciding if I eve want to reply to Hulk smash

I have lots of delectableness around on my plate, we will pick off the bad stuff






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